Monthly Archives: April 2020

Dreams

Apr 29, 2020 | Posted by in Everyday Jade | 1

I actually felt a little tingle of desire today. It’s been a loooong time since I’ve thought, “I want cock.” Even when I have talked and teased and played with Viper, it’s mostly Baldy (or some other vibe) that’s got me there – I haven’t been filled with lustful thoughts or urges before that. Covid has somehow stolen my sex from me. This afternoon, listening with half an ear to a silly rom com audio book, I heard the narrator tell her friend, who has been moping about a bad breakup, that she just needs to have a fling, find “someone strong to grip your hands over your head and just pound into you.” Apparently my body was listening closer than my brain, because my pussy actually twitched. I had to pause the book and go back 30 seconds to listen again. Yup, there it was, that twitch. It’s beenRead more …

Stay at Home Orders: Day … Who Knows?

Apr 15, 2020 | Posted by in Being Poly, Everyday Jade | 1

It’s been awhile since I’ve sat here thinking about writing. I’ve thought about writing a lot – I just haven’t actually sat myself down here to do it. I haven’t opened my laptop in weeks, to be honest. Guilt, anxiety, depression, illness? Who knows why not. There are a lot of reasons. I’ve thought about writing about what living in this new reality is like – but so often I am overwhelmed by sadness and grief and a kind of stunned disbelief that I simply subside into tears or numb myself with alcohol or stupid TV or a book. Anything to stop thinking about it. To stop asking, over and over, “When will it be over? How will it end? What will life be like when it’s not like this anymore?”  I spent a good couple weeks deeply depressed. Crying daily, having to resort to anxiety meds throughout the dayRead more …